Sunday, March 9, 2014

Eight


My plan needs tweaking. Now that Dane is here, I can see that the living room is too formal for our first meeting, my study too intimidating, and the dungeon is entirely out of the question. Instinct guides me to the kitchen.

“Follow me,” I instruct, knowing full well he’ll fall in behind, most likely with a perfect heel. His submission is impeccable, but at what cost?

Domestic service is one of the items Dane rated “extreme turn-on.” For all I know, he was fantasizing about naked vacuuming when he checked that box, but I figure a little "service" will be a good way to relax him.

I’m not a bad cook, but I’m always more than happy to turn the kitchen over to a talented sub. Judging from his body, Dane’s a healthy eater. If I’m lucky, I’ll get a good meal or two out of the deal.

“I’d like a glass of ice water, and I’d like you to pour yourself a drink as well—anything you like from the refrigerator.”

Dane seems surprised I’ve casually sat down at the small, round table and left him without any further instruction.

He manages, “Yes, Sir,” before exploring the cupboards near the sink for two glasses. He moves swiftly to the refrigerator, using the door dispenser to fill both glasses with ice and water. As I had anticipated, he delivers both drinks and takes his pose beside the table.

“Sit down, Dane. Relax.”

He sits in the chair opposite mine, but “relaxed” is not how I’d describe the stiff, upright posture across from me.

“I’m very glad you’re here, Dane. I’m excited to work with you. I want us to spend today getting to know each other a bit. I want to hear what you want out of this arrangement: where you want me to take you, what scares you, what you need from me. In return, I will share the same with you. What? Does that surprise you?”

He immediately lowers the raised eyebrows. “A little, Sir.”

“Why is that?”

Gripping the glass between his hands, he takes his time responding. “Something scares you, Sir?”

“Absolutely. The fear that I won’t be everything my submissive needs.”

I pause while he takes in my truth, his only outward response a shift of his gaze to where his thumbs meet the cool condensation.

“Dane, I need you to know, that is a very rare occurrence for me. I’m not being arrogant; I’m telling you the truth. Otherwise, I would’ve gotten out of this line of work—and pleasure—long ago.” Dane looks up. Good, he's hearing me. “I know I can be who you need if you’re patient with yourself and able to trust me.”

He nods.

“How about you, Dane? What are you looking for?”

I knew his eyes would escape first, darting up, down, anywhere but on me. “I wish only to serve well.”

The unspoken message rings loud and true, and I give it proper voice. “You’re looking for a master worthy of your service, as well you should.”

“Sir, I—”

“Dane, I heard you. Breathe easy, boy. You are nothing if not respectful.”

His shoulders inch down as he slowly releases a breath.

“There’s something you need to understand if I’m the master you choose for yourself.”

I wait for eye contact again.

“Sir?”

“My submissive serves me in a wide variety of ways.”

Dane nods slightly, no doubt imagining himself on his knees sucking me off, an image I instantly wish I hadn’t summoned.

“I suspect one of these ways is going to be a problem for you, at least at first.”

“I’ll do my best for you, Sir.”

Fuck, I want to kiss those sweet, earnest words as they leave his beautifully sculpted mouth. “I know you will, Dane. But tell me this, can you allow yourself pleasure? Or even the comfort of being held and stroked by a tender hand?”

His lower lip disappears as it’s pulled between his teeth, and sadness settles behind his eyes before he turns away again. I want to spring across the table and hug him, but I fear it would send him running for the hills. I settle for lifting my glass and dousing my thirst with cold water.

Time. Give him some time.

He pulls his hands from the glass and tangles them together in a tight clasp in front of him. Unable to lift his gaze, he answers, “I’m not sure.”

I’m gutted.

I need to reach this boy.

“I apologize, Dane. I asked you an unfair question.” He raises his eyes with great effort, and I see now that he’s holding back tears. “What I mean to ask you is this: do you want to experience those kinds of pleasures?”

Without a clue whether he never has or whether someone has cruelly torn it away from him, I stay away from any treacherous assumptions.

He searches my face for answers. His tongue swipes across his lower lip, and he answers with a crackle in his voice. “If it would please you, Sir.”

Every part of my body is vibrating with the effort of holding back. “It would please me immensely if you would allow me the great privilege of offering you comfort right now.”

He lifts his face to the ceiling as the tears break free. The first move is his, but I can make it easier for him. I shift to the seat next to Dane’s and place my hand palm up on the table between us.

He lowers his gaze cautiously, staring at the hand.

Take it.

I will sit like this for our entire session without another word if I have to, even if he can’t reach out and take what I offer. Dane needs to know I’m available to him, that he can count on me, and that it’s his choice.

The risk is immense, but so is the reward.

Ever so gradually, Dane’s joined hands slide along the table, closer and closer to my waiting hand. While we both watch, as if directed by an invisible puppeteer, his hands unclasp, and he places his left palm in mine.

“Thank you, Dane.”

If nothing else happens today, this is so much more than enough.



                             


They're holding hands! Awww. 

I knew my audience for Marcus's tale would be small but mighty, and I am loving every comment, message, and private conversation the story is inspiring. I've even made a new friend or two, which is always the pot of gold at the end of my kinky rainbow. Thank you all for reading and letting these characters into your hearts.

To my team of instigators, predictors, questioners, and fixers: love, love, love. Kudos to Jayme for the door knocker chapter art (and so much more).

42 comments:

  1. Wow, new reader here. I must confess slash is not usually for me, not because of any prejudice, my cousin is gay but I prefer to read MF stories but your Marcus is just so great, kind, patient and perfect and Dane is so vulnerable I just love it.
    Thank you for writing and posting so often
    Jarvis

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    1. HELLO, new reader/friend! Don't worry, I won't hold your preference for het against you! Most of us started there too! *winkety wink wink* Truly, this is one of my favorite types of reviews. I love that you would trust me to open a new door for you. Please, come on in! Thank you so much for your note. I really appreciate it! x

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  2. Aaaaaaaaaand I'm crying. God that was hard to read. I feel so much for Dane. As his story comes out (or is that just an assumption...I've never asked if we'll get more of his backstory) I have a feeling crying will be the norm. His tears will nearly always bring mine. I'm a sap. :D

    Marcus has so much compassion and love to give. I'm sure he's not even thinking along one of those lines right now but it's true. When Dane finally allows Marcus in it will be the most amazing thing for both of them. Not beautiful all the time, as there will always be a little ugly if only in the things that have made Dane the man he is, but beautiful in it's flaws as well as it's perfections. I can't wait for all of that.

    Favorite line... He lifts his face to the ceiling as the tears break free. ... In my mind this scene is so clear. So clear and poignant. Loved it.

    xoxo
    V

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    1. I LOVE YOUR sappy mcsapperstein routine, Lady V! Thank you for going there with Dane. Of course, his story is integral to how this all plays out, as is Marcus's. You'll hear more of both of their back stories as we go along.

      I love your predictions and your questions and your big wonderful heart. It's a pleasure to hear your responses. Thank you so much.

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  3. I read kea because I always love Edward bella stories but this was such a great pull on me since I loved marcus with Edward so I am so loving this story of marcus and dane keep me updated I cried on this chapter you are a great writer

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    1. TEARS! Oh, Denise, thank you so much for allowing my characters to move you. Truly. MWAH!

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  4. I love how slow Marcus is taking it, knowing that is what Dane needs. I can't wait to find out Dane's story.

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    1. Thank you, Debbi. You know you can always count on me for the slow burn.
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  5. I hope that whoever did this to Dane is made to pay by having the most vanilla bland sex possible for the rest of their life.

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    1. Oh, Cappy, perhaps we can do better than that! ;)

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  6. Wow, small steps for sure, but whatever it takes! I'm so glad Marcus found him.

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  7. I know I'm not adding much to any conversation B, other to tell you what an excellent job you continue to do, and to once again thank you for sharing your talent.
    xo
    Carol aka Dinia

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    1. You always add to the conversation! MWAH!
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  8. Hey..... I'm a faithful follower since kea but this is my first time posting a review.... I'm a staunch edward fan but you've got this marcus competing with him. Love your stories.

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    1. Well hello there and THANK YOU! I'm so pleased you popped in to say hello. Thank you for your lovely words. I hope you continue to enjoy this one!
      xo

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  9. Your gonna make me cry again aren't you? Gosh I just love your stories and this version of Marcus is both hot and sweet. I loved him in KEA and I'm shaking with anticipation to get to know him better in this story.

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    1. Oh my gosh....shaking, are ya? LOVE IT! You might shed a tear or two, but hopefully you'll laugh and sigh and have a heart full of all kinds of good things, too! Thank you for allowing my characters to work their way into your heart.
      x

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  10. Why do I have the insane urge to find out who did this to Dane and kick their arse?! Love Marcus's infinite patience, really respect his character.

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    1. Because I love you, that's why! I also love that you respect Marcus. That's perfect. xo

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  11. Can't wait to read more of Dane's back story. Or, perhaps I can. I have a feeling that it is going to be a touch sad. How fortunate that he met Marcus. I think that Marcus can fix anything or anyone with his level of patience and expertise.

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    1. I agree with you that Marcus can do anything. Magical master marcus.
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  12. Typing this with tears in my eyes. So many questions to ask but the one that keeps running through my head is what happened to this poor boy that he feels so undeserving of affection?

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  13. Awwwwwwwww!!!!!!! I know I've ready said this and probably will again and again.....
    I FREAKING ADORE MARCUS! Love him!
    I can feel his need for Dane to trust him and feel safe!
    Love it and you, B!
    Xoxo <3

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    1. I don't mind if you repeat yourself, Patesy!
      Thank you, sweets.
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  14. oh Marcus thou art a heart melter *becomes a puddle of goo*. I always loved Master in KEA, but the way he is with Dane - guh! I feel for the young sub - he's obviously got some issues in his past, but I sense Master Marcus will be just the ticket to heal his wounded soul. LOVED!

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    1. He's a bit amphibious- as I imagine a dom's dom would be- able to change himself to suit what his submissive most needs. There's the fun of it! Thanks for your lovely words, as always, Lisa.
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  15. I love that Marcus knows precisely what Dane needs in that moment and offers it without hesitation. It takes a caring and compassionate man to do that. One who is secure in himself. Touching chapter....

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    1. Ah yes. Marcus is definitely secure...or is he?
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  16. Sooo in awww of Marcus right now. Dane is breaking my heart. Love it.

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  17. Even Marcus is worried Dane might run. Holding hands seems perfect for ST. You do a great job showing what it is costing him to be here trusting Marcus. At least as much as he can right now.

    I imagine Marcus is as scared as he has ever been.

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    1. You captured both of their mindsets perfectly in your comments. Thank you for your insights.
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  18. I can feel those tears rolling down Dane ' s cheek and taste the salt on my lips. The fear of wanting is something I too have known. And wondering if you can even dare to dream. That hand holding is EVERYTHING. ♡♡

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    1. That's so beautiful, Meredith. Thanks for sharing. ♡♡

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  19. GET OUT OMG GET OUT GET OUT GET THE FUCK OUT.. why am I crying? I am crying whyyyyyy. When Dane admits he doesnt know if he can allow himself pleasure and Marcus said "I need to reach this boy," oh my god my heart broke. Wow, the pain was real. I felt it radiating off the page/screen whatever. Intense. I love getting post in it.

    Marcus is exceptional. He is so attuned to the boy's needs... or at least finding out what they are. Oh I can feel that he will get the pleasure he needs just by taking care of Dane. And we'll of course other things but he knows he needs to thread slowly and carefully lest he hurt Dane unintentionally. And that won't end well for anyone. Not even me.

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    1. Oh, Packy! MY HEART! You are exactly on target when you say that Marcus will get all the pleasure he needs by taking care of Dane. :)
      xxx

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  20. ugh, my heart aches! i love how quickly marcus thinks and assesses the situation. and his kid gloves in handling this fragile boy. i can only imagine how difficult all of this is for dane, but he held marcus's hand. yay!! such a huge step forward. :)

    i'm so interested to find out whether dane's issues are from a lost/abusive childhood that he carried over into the lifestyle or if he was abused by a dom. and if it was a dom i wonder if it may be someone marcus knows in the community. if so there will be hell to pay! dane is so well trained and obedient i am sort of leaning towards the latter but i can also see it being both situations. love this story!! :) x

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