Friday, March 21, 2014

Fifteen


“My word is ‘enough.’”

“Enough?”

“Yes.”

“Okay, got it,” he responds, as if committing to memory a series of complicated dance moves. Entrusted with my vulnerability, Dane’s more sure of himself. He stands a bit taller, holds his head a bit higher. A very good sign.

“Our work today is going to be making sure you use your safe word when you need to.”

As predicted, my plan brings a pinch of tension to his forehead. I’m so tempted to soothe his fears; I know how little it will take to draw his safe word; it won’t even require stepping into the dungeon. Sadly, Dane has no basis for believing I won’t harm him. He’s seen it all, I fear.

Do not baby the boy, Marcus. That’s not what he needs.

His breathing picks up as I step forward again. We’re roughly the same height, but I’ve got at least fifty pounds on him, ten of which I’d prefer to do without. “I want to compliment you on your eye contact today; you’re doing a great job with that.”
                                                                                       
“Thank you, Sir.”

 “You don’t like to be touched.”

“No, Sir.”

“I’m going to push you on that.” It’s a win-win situation for me as long as he does safe word before I push him too far.

All the oxygen is sucked out of the chamber.

“Do you remember taking my hand last time?”

“Yes, Sir.”

“That wasn’t so terrible, was it?”

“No, Sir.”

“This is just like that, only I’ll be doing the touching, and you’ll be standing still. I want to hear you, Dane. I don’t ever want you silent unless I command it. I will be checking in with you, and you are to answer me honestly. There’s no shame in feeling uncomfortable. You need to tell me about it. Understood?”

“Yes, Sir.”

“And if it ever gets to be more than you can handle, you use your safe word . . .”

“Mercy.”

“Right. We begin. Drop your arms at your sides.”

Dane draws a huge breath into his lungs and holds it while I reach for his hands. My fingertips brush his clammy, quaking fingers, and it’s a miracle I’m not shaking, too. I curl my fingers around his, watching carefully for signals.

“How are you, Dane?”

“I’m fine, Sir.” His voice reminds me of a post-hit weed smoker. In Dane’s case, it’s oxygen he’s clinging to.
                                                                                                   
“Try to breathe.”

My hands glide slowly over his wrists, up the forearms to the elbows. With all the kinky shit I do in here, it amazes me how such a chaste touch can heat my blood. “Dane?”

“I’m fine, Sir.”

He draws and releases a deep breath.

Up I travel, keeping my eyes locked on his though they long to study the subtle bulges of his upper arms, the curve of his shoulders. His breathing is steady but ever steeper. Goosebumps cover his skin. If I’m right, he’s as turned on as I am and not nearly as freaked out as he thought he’d be.

“Dane, how does this feel?”

“I’m okay, Sir.”

“Is that an accurate description of your response, Dane? ‘Okay’?” I move forward, letting the front of my black pants skim against his jeans. I can feel his erection, and he knows it; he can feel mine too. My thumbs rub circles where his shoulders meet his neck, and he doesn’t pull back.

He blinks slowly, returning a glassy-eyed gaze and licking his lips. “It feels good, Sir.”

Yes, it does.

Push, Marcus. Remember the lesson.

“Rule number three: Never, ever come without my express permission.”

That shakes him a bit, as I knew it would, but he holds his position like a champ as my palms move down his chest. I finally get my hands on those tiny knots. He draws in a sharp hiss as I grasp his nipples, and one sharp twist buckles his knees. The sudden pressure in my groin nearly takes us both down, but Dane, being the graceful athlete, regains his balance and immediately apologizes.

“What happens if I do . . . this?” He grunts and throws his head back as I scrape his nipples with my nails. “You still okay, Dane?”

Safe word or more play, I win either way.

“Yes, Sir,” he assures me, and I believe him.

“You have my permission to hold onto me so you don’t lose your balance.”

Dane nods but he doesn’t take me up on my kind offer. He will soon because my hands are traveling lower into dangerous territory. I skim my thumbs down his abdomen and follow with the rest of my fingers in a feathery light tease of a touch. His quick, excited breaths ripple the skin under my fingers and throw warm puffs of air onto my lips. More goosebumps light my path like a beacon from a lighthouse on top of a craggy shore.

My thrusts get rougher. I’m not above a good dry hump, but that’s not my goal. I need him off balance, just enough to—

Yes.

He flails and grabs onto either side of my waist. I can feel the heat coming off his hands right through my shirt. My fingers tickle lower, inside the V-shaped valley leading toward his pants.

“Oh GOD, SIR!” Dane drops his forehead to my shoulder. “No, I can’t . . . please . . .”

“Say it, Dane. Or ask permission to come.”

My own orgasm is seconds away, but I’m fully attuned to Dane’s body. He’s so close, he’s shaking. I want him to succeed, one way or the other.

“Say something, Dane.”

Nnngh! Ahhh! Nngh!”

“Stop torturing yourself and speak. Choose your fate before it chooses itself!”


“MERCY!”



So...are you proud of Dane? Disappointed? Did Marcus push him too far?

I loved chatting with so many of you about Aro and his rules about safe words during punishment. He's a creeper, all right! Maybe Marcus has changed Aro's views on the subject since this flashback occurred?

All viewpoints are welcome and respected. Thank you for sharing your insights with me! XOXO


35 comments:

  1. I'm not disappointed. I'm glad Dane made a choice and voiced it, instead of just standing there silent and miserable. (I like to think that he would have preferred to come but was still mentally blocked by his old master's refusal to let that happen, rather than truly not being able to take Marcus touching him anymore.)

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  2. Oh, wow. That is WAY too bad. But it was only the first time. I think he'll go farther next time.

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  3. I'm really proud of Dane and I hope he'll see he's obeyed his commands perfectly.
    Love,
    A. xx

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    1. Awww. That's what his Master is there to tell him!
      xo

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  4. That was soooo damn sexy and intense. I wish we could watch a video with Marcus' commentary to guide us.

    Dane did so much better than I thought he would; perhaps his walls aren't as thick as even he believes they are. Yay!!

    He's probably just in survival mode, "all or nothing", and because 'all' got him hurt and taken advantage of, his survival instincts tell him only 'nothing' will keep him safe.

    Marcus will definitely enjoy the ultimate challenge and rewards for his efforts. And Dane. ;)

    I giggle when I get updates. For real!! That's because I love this story so much. I have a few people I need to recommend it to. And quickly. Thanks for being so awesome!

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    1. What a great suggestion! Video commentary by Marcus!
      I like your theories about Dane, and I do believe Marcus is up to the challenge.

      I'm so pleased you're enjoying the story.
      xo

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  5. Ooh thank goodness he said something, "Mercy" or "may I come" equally good for me.

    I wonder what Marcus would have done for a punishment if Dane had come without permission although given his previous Master's methods I suppose that is unlikely ALTHOUGH their attraction to each other is so intense anything could have happened...... so many variables, such layers, I always have such a lot to think about after each chapter.

    Thank you

    Jarvis

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    1. I think Marcus would agree with you, J. He would've been perfectly happy either way.

      I LOVE your question, love your pondering. Please keep it up and keep sharing with me! xo

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  6. Dane was able to allow Marcus to touch him for some time before the decision was to say Mercy or ask to come. Very intense for both of them. Proud that he found his voice.

    flutterfli

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  7. LOVE: "Do not baby the boy, Marcus. That’s not what he needs." That would soo be my instinct in this situation, but Marcus knows the best way to bring Dane back to life. Too much tenderness from Marcus will confuse the hell out of Dane. I assume he probably needs some of the rules/ boundaries/ etc to keep his bearings straight!

    I love how Marcus complimented Dane on his eye contact. positive reinforcement is good. :)

    I really enjoyed the whole touching scene. I might have held my breath as much as Dane did!! I was very happy for both of them that Dane was able to safeword when he needed to- now Marcus will reinforce that it's okay. He won't be punished or humiliated for using it. I will second another's pondering up there: curious about how Marcus would have punished him if needed? hmmmm... :)

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    1. I also think there's a dynamic with M/m so different from M/f and I try to respect that in the writing.

      That question about punishment is a good one. I wasn't ready for them to need to explore that yet!
      xxx

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  8. oh wow Dane's response to his Master's touch was so intense. His feelings were conflicted - the pleasure he felt in direct opposition to being touched. Marcus knew exactly how far to take things, and I liked that he welcomed the safeword. He doesn't want a sub to endure more than he can handle. Great chapter :)

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    1. Thank you, Lisa.
      Poor Dane feels pain in the pleasure- we've got to make him flip that upside-down!
      xx

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  9. Born,
    I really liked Marcus in KEA. I mean hot guy, knows his way around the dungeon, what's not to like right? Well I am LOVING him here. In fact, I want one of my own. So strong (mentally, emotionally, physically - even with the added ten pounds *ha*), confident, competent, able to experience and properly channel his justified anger at Dane's previous Master, honest enough to acknowledge his feelings. OMG, so much to love. And you're just getting started!! I can't wait to see how this goes. Thanks for inviting us all to share in kink that is your imagination.

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    1. I have to admit, P, I honestly thought there was a "but" coming after that first sentence, so I was MUCH relieved to hear how much you're liking the sequel! Thank you so much for your encouragement and enthusiasm for the story. I have so much of these two to share. I'm so happy you're here for the ride.
      xo

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  10. Well, that Dane got as far as he did with Marcus in this session just shows how much he trusts Marcus or, at least, wants to trust Marcus. I have got to admire Marcus' patience with Dane as well. Such a caring person. I like that.

    Don't think that Marcus really pushed Dane too far. I think Marcus needs to find out exactly how far he can go with Dane and how is he supposed to do that if he doesn't push somewhat? I didn't get from Dane using his safeword that he was afraid necessarily. I think he is confused. His new Dom is nothing like what he is used to and that has got to throw him for a loop, right? And with all the talk about using his safeword and feeling comfortable in doing that, I figured that is why he used it instead of asking permission to come. They have not discussed the latter and his former Dom didn't allow him to come right? So, more confusion.

    Dane did a lot better than I would have initially thought. But then I would imagine that Marcus projects the warm fuzzies when you need it. And, of course, can be a complete hard ass when you need that too. However, Dane has seemingly had enough of the hard ass. He needs some TLC.

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    1. All of your wonderful questions and predictions will be addressed in the next chapter. Thank you so much for giving this one so much thought!
      xx

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  11. little baby steps can be very sexy too! I wonder if Dane held on so long was because his confidence in Marcus was different than his previous master?

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  12. So proud of them BOTH! Watching all of this unfold is the best experience! Thanks for that, my dear. I'd give you more but I was out yesterday so I'm playing catch up and YOU GAVE US ANOTHER CHAPTER TODAY!!!!!!!!

    Favorite line... Do not baby the boy, Marcus. That’s not what he needs. ...This line is so perfect. If it's worth doing, do it right and Marcus seems to be BANG on! Guh. I'm in love. That's all.

    xoxo
    V

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    1. I'm going to probably update every day for a while. I have so many chapters waiting for all of you and I have ZERO restraint!

      xoxo
      love you back!

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    2. I have never been happier for your lack of restraint, my dear. THIS MAKES ME RIDICULOUSLY GIDDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

      *tackle hugs B and proceeds to sloppy kisses*

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  13. this is the kind of limit-pushing that Dane may come to enjoy! if that happens, touching wouldn't be a hard limit anymore, would it? Love this!

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    1. Seems like he'd be persuaded to move on being touched, huh?
      xo

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  14. whew... you do build the tension. Once again, I am impressed with how you make there physical actions so specific. Marcus knew just how to keep talking so Dane didn't just keep stuttering in his mind.

    I'm not thinking about Aro. I do NOT want in his mind.

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    1. :) I love sexual tension! Thank you for your tremendous compliment.
      Aro's a scary dude.
      xo

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  15. God you do UST so well. *fans self*

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  16. Holy fuck how intenseeeeee. Very very glad that Marcus is pushing him to make choices. I fear that Dane will feel horrible for safe wording already on their first real scene, but I think Marcus is doing it the right way. Giving him the choice will make him see that he won't be forced to do anything that makes him uncomfortable or hurt. Also talking is one thing, but in action it can be another. Seeing how the situation pans out after a safe word is used will be good for them both. As well, this is good because it will give Marcus a feel of what he's working with. Where to go from here and what he needs to do to help Dane unwind some more.

    Also it helped that he told Dane before hand that he would push him a bit. Blindsiding him could've resulted badly. And Dane probably would've been too scared to utilize his safe word and end up hurt in the process. And having Marcus remind him that it was okay to safe word if he had to... right there in the moment helped Dane as well.

    Man... can you believe I'm shaking while writing this review? Gahhh

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    1. I'm THRILLED that you're shaking! We're going for goose bumps and gasping here! Yes to all your observations. Dane needs to see for himself that safe wording has no negative consequences. It'll be up to Marcus now to show him that...
      xxx

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  17. yay, i'm so happy to be back with these boys!! i was half way through one of naelany's e/j stories and wanted to concentrate on just one. anyway, i think marcus is handling dane just perfectly. he always remembers not to coddle the boy, he needs to be pushed, just not too hard. and dane is definitely responding well. so proud of hik using his safe word. now i can't to hear him beg for release! :)

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    1. Well, HELLO! What a lovely surprise to see you back here. I think you nailed it there- MARCUS knows just how to handle Dane, and handle him he WILL. Heeheehee. xoxo

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