Thursday, March 6, 2014

Six

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From: Dane Carmichael
Sent: Wednesday, December 26, 2012 5:37 AM
To: Marcus Andrews
Subject: Checklist

Sir:

i hope Your holiday was peaceful. mine was spent completing and reviewing this checklist for You (see link below) and as You can see from the time stamp, not sleeping much.

As promised, my limits are extensive. i will understand if You change Your mind.

humbly yours,
dane
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With the printout in my lap, coffee in one hand and red felt-tip in the other, I’m ready. Who am I kidding here? I’m eager as hell to learn about my boy. Yes, I’ve possessed him already, and I cannot imagine anything here that would change my mind.

I’ve seen pretty much everything at this point in my life. Sure, I’m jaded by the abuse and, frankly, the stupidity of some of the doms who hire me to straighten out their own messes, but not so much that I don’t believe fervently in the power of the right bonded relationship. If Edward and Bella aren’t the perfect example of two people so much better off in a dominant-submissive relationship, I don’t know who is.

I don’t even get halfway down the first page before my heart sinks for Dane. His experience column is nearly full, and yet, there is a huge mismatch between what he’s done and what he enjoys doing. I set down my coffee and pen, using both hands to flip through the multi-page document, furiously searching for something he’s rated higher than “will tolerate”—and I’m devastated to find very little. The pages are littered with “Hard Limit” ratings, punctuated by exclamation points in the comments column. The bondage page is one hard limit after another from top to bottom. A submissive who can’t tolerate a blindfold or a simple wrist or ankle binding is unusual, to say the least. He isn’t turned on by fetishes or role play, cannot tolerate pain—or being touched at all, from what I can see. I might be able to reach him with a feather—wow.

“What do you like, boy?”
                                  
I review the pages once again, more thoroughly this time, making note of the few “like” ratings: Cock worship. Edge play. Withheld orgasms. No wonder he wouldn’t relieve himself at the wedding reception.

This submissive is basically the fantasy playground for an abusive master—or perhaps, his product. No wonder the boy was skittish.

“Jesus!” I throw the papers on the coffee table and flop back on my couch. Dane’s damage is more extensive than I had imagined, and yet I’ve seen the torch that fires his soul when he dances. He will easily be my biggest challenge.

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From: Marcus Andrews
Sent: Wednesday, December 26, 2012 8:40 AM
To: Dane Carmichael
Subject: Re: Checklist
    
Good morning, Dane.

I’ve just spent an hour with your checklist. You and I have some work to do together. I’d like to get started right away. Frankly, I think we both could use the sleep!

Do you have access to a car or shall I send one for you? Please provide me with your schedule—including work and social commitments—for the next four weeks. Further instruction will be supplied when we have our first meeting arranged.

I need to know that you can communicate with me orally. Will that be possible?

My promise stands, Dane. I will take excellent care of your needs.

Warmly,
Marcus

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From: Dane Carmichael
Sent: Wednesday, December 26, 2012 8:51 AM
To: Marcus Andrews
Subject: Re: Re: Checklist
Attached: schedjan.docx

Sir:

i may have danced a little bit when i received Your response. i am able to speak if required by Master. i guess You might label conversation a "soft limit."

i give You my word You will always have my very best effort.

my schedule is attached. i do not have a car (or driver's license).

Thank You, Sir.

yours,
dane
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His schedule provides a key piece of the Dane puzzle—turns out he is a professional dancer currently performing off-Broadway. I’ve refrained from Googling him up to this point, preferring to learn the man as he chooses to reveal himself, but fact-gathering is critical to my ability to provide for him. Now that he’s agreed to submit to me, I take no shame in using the internet to learn everything I can. He’d be a fool not to do the same though Dane’s learned what he needs to know if Edward has been as candid as I expect he has.

Dane’s day job thrills me on a number of levels. The selfish part of me immediately imagines ogling him from the anonymity of a darkened theatre. The Master in me revels in the strength I’ll be able to capitalize on in my playroom if I’m able to make the kind of progress I hope to make with his mind. The man in me has already begun fantasizing about the hard, tight body that will be mine to explore and appreciate. But above all, I’m delighted that Dane’s dancing has the chance to light his everyday life, as well it should.

After exchanging several more emails, I summon Dane to my home on Saturday. Meeting for the first time as dom and sub is going to make us both tense as hell, and I don’t want to torture him by dragging out the waiting any longer than necessary. If I’m being honest, I’m a five-year-old boy who can’t wait until Christmas morning to unwrap his gifts.

     
                      

I’ll admit it—I’m the boy who can’t wait! This story is burning a hole in my dropbox! So, you see what Dane’s checklist looks like, (BOO!) but Marcus does not seem deterred. (YAY!)

Thank you all for your comments, PM’s, and FB messages. I’m so delighted you’re getting so involved! 

33 comments:

  1. Love a good challenge <3

    my heart breaks a little for Dane tho.

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  2. Wow, conversation is a soft limit. I can't even imagine what he's been through. I do love how eager he is to pursue something with Marcus. He's very sure of others, just not himself.

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    1. Yeah, if conversation is a hard limit his past must be scary!

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    2. Well, Cappy, he does seem fairly sure of Marcus. But then, maybe he's a boy who trusts too easily?

      Lila, yeah. :(

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  3. It will be interesting to see how Marcus will be able to reward or teach such a sweet fragile boy.

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  4. I love how Marcus is already referring to Dane as "my boy." He is so invested and he hasn't even played with him yet!

    My heart aches right along with Marcus's as he peruses Dane's checklist. When he starts wondering about abusive Masters, my heart cracks a little more.

    Marcus has his work cut out for him here. He'll have to get creative if traditional modes of bondage, etc are not on the table. And I'm curious to see how they will interact/ communicate/ learn about each other, if speaking is a "soft limit" for Dane.

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    1. YES, Marcus has possessed him! You are so right about Marcus's creativity. I hope he has it in him! *wink* Can't wait to share!
      xx

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  5. Can I say something I have observed about this story? Born it seems to excite you to write this one so much! That is what makes it so intriguing.
    Marcus knows he is going to be on his A game in this relationship and that means he is going to do his very best for the not so tiny dancer. Love this ... and you lol.

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    1. I am SO happy you feel that way, Vicki. Yes, I am REALLY excited about this one. It is a pure joy to write. And sharing it has been very intense. My Marcus crowd is small but very passionate and I love each of you!
      x

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  6. Awwww Dane. I just want to hold him.
    Marcus is amazing! I love his anxiousness. Eeeeeep! I'm getting anxious myself! ❤️

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    1. It's good to get a little knot in your stomach. It means you care! <3

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  7. The banner makes sooooo much sense now! Marcus's enthusiasm and acceptance of Dane's list was probably my favorite part in this chapter. He loves a challenge and Dane presents a huge one.

    You know I love posting favorite lines but often have a hard time keeping it to just one line, well this chapter was no different! ...

    After exchanging several more emails, I summon Dane to my home on Saturday. Meeting for the first time as dom and sub is going to make us both tense as hell, and I don’t want to torture him by dragging out the waiting any longer than necessary. If I’m being honest, I’m a five-year-old boy who can’t wait until Christmas morning to unwrap his gifts.

    Your use of the word summon was so perfect here. It's a forceful word from a man who means business but it wasn't harsh. I love the words you use for these two men. They're always so....spot on.

    xoxo
    V

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    1. Thank you so much for your beautiful words. I really appreciate your picking out a word or phrase you liked. As a writer, you know the agony we put ourselves through reaching for that one word that expresses what you mean. I actually gave "summon" quite a bit of thought. Somehow the usual dom words (command, order, etc) don't feel right very often with these two. Betti did such a lovely job with the banner after we briefly discussed the theme of the story. xo

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  8. Sounds like Dane has been abused at the hands of his former Doms. Why else would he be so seemingly unsatisfied by the lifestyle that he wants to participate in?

    Yeah, I just BET that Marcus wants to communicate "orally!" *giggles* Yes, I get what you meant. Trying to make a joke here. Although failing miserably. LOL I am a horrible joke teller.

    Fabulous last line for this chapter.

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  9. Marcus sure has his work cut out for him. Most impotantly, he needs to earn Dane's trust. How is it going to work out if Dane cannot be bondaged? Looks like we are going to have to trust the Good Master.

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    1. Trust. That's what it's all about...HEY!
      x

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  10. How do I get to your drop box to see that checklist? Is it here? If not, where? Sorry to be so helpless-sounding. I'm usually not. I'm excited to read their first meeting at Marcus' house.

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    1. BAHAHA NOW she wants the secret dropbox codes?? TOO FUNNY, Judy Blue! No, it's not presented, but you'll have a good idea how it reads.
      x

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  11. wow conversation is a soft limit?! poor boy what on earth has he been through? can't wait to find out more.
    ENx

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  12. He didn't spend the holiday with anyone? No family, No friends? I'm glad he has a career that is has a component of self expression. I'm wondering if all the abuse was from a Dom and how much from family.

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  13. I can't help but think these 2 were destined to find each other. The sub who thinks he is damaged beyond all repair, and doesn't deserve to be "fixed". The Dom that specializes in fixing and is looking for something else, even if he doesn't quite realize what that something is quite yet.

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    1. Hmmm, sounds too strange to be true, doesn't it?
      *wink wink*
      xo

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  14. Oh my heart... conversation a soft limit? Oh boy there's some work to be done. But I like the fact that despite the extensively heartbreaking checklist, Marcus chooses not to see Dane as a fixer upper. He just simply wants them both to find pleasure in the pleasure that he could bring to Dane through his dominance and evidently, Dane's submission. I wish I could've seen this checklist... like in real print. Let me tell you, I'm so intense about this story and the characters, I want those details. I want to know inferior things like what font Dane uses in his checklist (weird right? Tell me about it) or if he printed out the checklist and actually wrote, what will his script look like. Gah... I'm way off the deep end already and it's been what 5/6 chapeers? Gah...

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    1. I love how you say Marcus doesn't see Dane as a "fixer upper," and you are so right. He wants to understand where Dane is and meet him right there and work within Dane's limits. I LOVE that you're trying to picture his script. That's a really beautiful insight/question, and now I'm trying to picture it as well. I bet he's a really meticulous, careful, thoughtful writer who takes time to form every letter with the utmost care. Dane doesn't do anything carelessly. Thanks for this wonderful insight.
      xx

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  15. Hahah omg the fact that Dane did a little dance when he received Marcus' response made me sigh since he knows how his dancing affects Marcus. To put that image in his had was a good move. Also I got a level of ease from his email, so he may be on his way to coming in.

    I also love that even though Dane's list was extensively heartbreaking, Marcus did in no way see him as a fixer upper. In my view he simply sees the need to show Dane pleasureally through his dominance and in obvious retrospect, Dane's submission.

    I'm excited for when they get to meet each other finally. Away from the public, in their own privacy so they can get a better feel of each other and Dom and sub.

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    1. Yeah, sigh, Marcus DOES love watching Dane dance!
      xo

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  16. aww, poor dane. how sad that his needs haven't been fulfilled by those he put his trust in. i knew marcus wouldn't be deterred, dane is his boy now no matter what. i'm anxious to see how their relationship plays out and how marcus is able to change dane's limits.

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    1. You are so right about Marcus not being deterred! Thanks for your thoughts, Jodie!
      xx

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